I found myself pausing in the middle of this day
deciding what to do next
And realized that pausing is not something
I generally do
at least not in this way
‘Generally’ means moving from one thing to another
not stopping to look around
or think about what I want to do
There have been years of going and doing
This, however, is the year of slowing and stopping
imposed by a pandemic
on top of aging, cancer and the
slipping of the Polar Vortex
I imagine this is enough to allow a pause,
to welcome a surge of gratitude for this life
unfolding as it is
before taking the next step
into the next moment
and the tomorrow after that